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The right thing to do.

I went to the psychiatrist yesterday after taking a long, intricate IQ/psychoanalysis test and find out some pretty complicated details in my thought processes and the dysfunction effecting my cognitive response from childhood trauma. These subtleties in the test were said to not likely be something that one would ever deduce from any benchmark test taken for school. I have a high IQ, surpassing more than 75% of my peer group (not personally but of the total population). Unfortunately, I posses a condition that prevents me from producing up to speed cognitive responses and logic in an efficient manor from stimuli and conceptual problems.
My treatment consists of 1 mg k-pins and 70 mg vyvanse and now you decide I’m too crazy for you.
I’m very disappointed that you’re so ignorant that you pass off my mental health problems and leave when all I’m doing is trying to fix them.
I won’t be too emotionally scarred from the experience of you separated from my life: partially because of its repetitive occurrence and partially because I’m on my way to true happiness. The doctor said the defense mechanism I use when dealing with emotions is to put them deep back in my mind and let them slowly implode in me and destroy my sanity; it’s something that has been built over time, causing other imbalances in the hormones I release for emotion.
I decided I would try to express my emotions on my own time, alone, today. I cried, I deeply felt the sadness that hangs over my heart every day, like a knife tied to a rotten rope crumbling from decomposition.
I then watched a comedic themed video and laughed so hard I almost peed myself. I felt the rush of endorphins flood my bloodstream, creating a euphoric feeling of mania in my mind. These are the first feelings I’ve actually allowed to effect my state of mind, a large self accomplishment to say the least. I’ve masked all of my past emotions, not letting them effect me. Most describe this feeling “being numb.”

This medicine is supposed to make me feel better about myself, and fix the imbalance I have deep down in the abyss of my subconscious mind. The doctor told me I have acquired senile, schizoid personality tendencies from my childhood experiences. These tendencies have subconsciously resulted in a heavily withdrawn introversion from society. I used to be an extrovert, and with the help of modern chemistry prescribed by a specialist M.D., maybe I can truly heal my brain to my younger years when I was a confident extrovert with an unaffected cognitive response mechanism.

The doctor said that I’m the type of patient that is most difficult to treat, because people blame my disapproval of anti-depressants on my ignorance; in reality, anti-depressants were given to me to fix a problem that wasn’t treatable with anti-depressants. He specifically explained to me that I actually am different from about 99% people who have GAD or GDD.
He connected so many questions about myself in my mind with sensible, educated answers. He told me that some of my anger actually derives from the misconception of others that I’m perfectly fine and just “going through a rough patch,” or “just a teenager.” He explained my life to me, and gave me the perfect directions on how to gain control of my life, thoughts and happiness.

This medicine is supposed to make me feel better about myself, and fix the imbalance I have deep down in the abyss of my subconscious mind. The doctor told me I have acquired senile, schizoid personality tendencies from my childhood experiences. These tendencies have subconsciously resulted in a heavily withdrawn introversion from society. I used to be an extrovert, and with the help of modern chemistry prescribed by a specialist M.D., maybe I can truly heal my brain to my younger years when I was a confident extrovert with an unaffected cognitive response mechanism.

I’ve figured a lot of things out in the past couple days Bari, and I just don’t think your the right thing for me in this chapter of my life anymore. With amorous love, Drew.

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I… that was not what i expected….

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Double reds ❤❤

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ninjabirthdaycake:

daisygarbage:

This is still my favourite post.

omg its back

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